Jan 5, 2012
“I was tired of acting free when I was not, tired of acting strong when I was in fact weak.” -Lisa Bevere from Out of Control and Loving It
Have you ever felt like this?
I know as a woman who struggled with body image for some time, this was a regular feeling for me. I tried to put on a strong front that I wasn’t struggling, that I had things under control, but the truth was that I didn’t. The funny thing is though, the more I tried to control it, the worse my condition became. It wasn’t until I finally came to a desperate enough place where I was tired of striving for “perfection” or “ideal” and surrendered that area of my life to Christ that HE began to take control and transform my mind on this issue, a healing process that began about five years ago.
As I’ve been reading this book, Out of Control and Loving It, the Lord has used it to remind me of the areas from which He has awakened me out of bondage! And at the same time shown me the importance of NOT LOOKING BACK.
Even though Christ had set me free in this area of my life for quite some time, I did not walk about in the freedom God had given me until about a year ago. I acted as though I were still in bondage when in fact I had been set free. I beat myself up over past failures or lack of self control and took pride in knowing myself so well because I had spent countless hours analyzing my every mistake. I continuously reviewed my past in an attempt to pinpoint where my mindset began to shift, when my unhealthy thinking began, and why I still struggled with that mindset.
I thought this would be beneficial, but eventually I came to see that it is a fallacy to believe that by studying our past failures and mistakes we will prevent current or future ones…a realization that can be applied to every area of life! (Out of Control and Loving it, p. 17) I had to shake it off and leave the past in the dust; and this was only possible by once again laying this idle at the feet of Jesus and FULLY allowing God to take control this time. This meant whether I gained 5 or 10 pounds or lost 5 or 10 pounds this was no longer going to be my goal.
My goal was going to be to BE HEALTHY and GLORIFY GOD WITH MY BODY. End. of. story. Putting vanity aside, I was responsible for maintaining the temple of the Holy Spirit and that had to become my motivation for my eating and exercising patterns. I prayed daily and still do that God would give me a healthy, balanced mindset for the day and reveal to me who I am in Him as I meditate on his Word! The Lord is much more concerned with the beauty of our hearts than the beauty of our bodies, let’s be women who are more concerned with the same!
Dec 19, 2011
This past week I enjoyed an evening of pampering myself as I spent a considerable amount of time working out, taking a hot bath, manicuring my nails, applying sunless tanner, and whitening my teeth.
At the end of the night I jumped into bed and reached over to grab my Bible and spend some sweet time in the Word. Usually I read a chapter or two in the book that Im on that week but that night a scripture came to mind, Proverbs 31:30, so I thought I’d check it out. When I flipped to the page this is what it said,
“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.”
I knew this was God’s gently yet directly speaking to me and I began thinking… How much time a week do I spend feeding and manicuring my physical body versus my spirit? I saw this as a reality check on how well I really do at balancing my priorities sometimes. So as I was thinking about it today, I resolved to spend an equal amount of time in the Word and prayer as exercise for the next 7 days and see how that impacts my mindset during exercise and throughout the week… I’ll let ya know how that goes.
Now I know this isnt taking into account everything that I do to maintain physical appearance such as time spent getting ready each morning etc… but I thought itd be a good start! My prayer is that God would mold me more into His likeness as I spend time with Him so that my life would resemble that of a Proverbs 31 woman!
Dec 11, 2011
“The King is enthralled by your beauty; honor Him, for He is your Lord.”
Wow, the king is ENTHRALLED by YOUR beauty! What is even sweeter is that God’s appreciation for your beauty is driven by his deep love for you. It is more common in our world for the appreciation of a woman’s beauty to be primarily if not soley driven by her physical attributes. So it is wonderful when you get to witness or experience a deeper love like this that is rather based on who you are and the position of your heart towards God. Such a love is unconditional and freeing! …you have this! in God! Who do you know that loves you like this? Do you show yourself this kind of love and appreciation or do you base your value on your physical beauty?… how do you show this kind of love and appreciation to others?